An OCD Freakout in progress ...

I feel so incredibly stupid and helpless right now even though I am still not wrong.

It took me so long to defeat what I called the “reset” compulsion, where if I was wrong or something unplanned happened, I would have to wait until Monday to “start again.” This was a keto diet killer for me when I started.And it’s still a challenge for me when things go wrong …

Then I am a creature of habit. If I get up late or miss a “ritual” task, I am fully capable of falling into complete dysfunction …

I’ve been pretty good at keeping my irrational BS suppressed, especially during quarantine. I have lowered my fasting blood sugar level by an average of 20 points and am about to break less than 200 pounds … I predict it by the end of this weekend.

But today … I’m fighting.

I’ve been in the habit of recording my morning blood sugar, weight, HR, and O2 saturation for a long time … it keeps me motivated, and seeing the numbers drop is a huge motivation / obsession for me. But the application I use will not register me. Why something as small as this has made me nervous today, I wish I could tell you. My rational brain says, just write it down, register it later … you’ll be fine. But my crazy side tells me that I can’t physically go to my next task for today unless I record this. In fact, my stomach hurts from this and I have a hard time starting something productive.

Does anyone else struggle with changes in their routine? Would you mind sharing with me how you get over it?

Thank you!

I feel so incredibly stupid and helpless right now even though I am still not wrong.

It took me so long to defeat what I called the “reset” compulsion, where if I was wrong or something unplanned happened, I would have to wait until Monday to “start again.” This was a keto diet killer for me when I started.And it’s still a challenge for me when things go wrong …

Then I am a creature of habit. If I get up late or miss a “ritual” task, I am fully capable of falling into complete dysfunction …

I’ve been pretty good at keeping my irrational BS suppressed, especially during quarantine. I have lowered my fasting blood sugar level by an average of 20 points and am about to break less than 200 pounds … I predict it by the end of this weekend.

But today … I’m fighting.

I’ve been in the habit of recording my morning blood sugar, weight, HR, and O2 saturation for a long time … it keeps me motivated, and seeing the numbers drop is a huge motivation / obsession for me. But the application I use will not register me. Why something as small as this has made me nervous today, I wish I could tell you. My rational brain says, just write it down, register it later … you’ll be fine. But my crazy side tells me that I can’t physically go to my next task for today unless I record this. In fact, my stomach hurts from this and I have a hard time starting something productive.

Does anyone else struggle with changes in their routine? Would you mind sharing with me how you get over it?

Thank you!

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